Fear of Failure | Día de los Muertos | Personal Shoot | Portland, Oregon

Almost 2 years ago I saw a beautiful Día de los Muertos painting. It was the first time I really looked at anything Day of the Dead-related that was not a kitschy nicknack or halloween costume sold at Hot Topic, but actually a really beautiful piece of art. It was soft, and feminine, and dark… romantic even. I fell in love and immediately I knew I wanted to someday shoot a bridal photo session inspired by that painting.

But as it tends to go that idea got added to a long list of dreams and put on the back burner. Things got busy and it became a shoot I'd always talked about doing, but never actually did because the ideas I had for it in my head were too grand and overwhelming to actually think about pulling off. I wanted to go to the desert during a windstorm, I wanted a $7000 dress, and a herd of wild horses… etc. etc. All things that seemed too big to coordinate for a shoot without a budget and for no real reason other than fun. One morning I woke up and realized not doing the shoot just because it couldn't be as big as my imagination wouldn't help me at all. It wasn't a good excuse anymore. Why not do the shoot here in Portland with what I have and try to make it the best I can with my available resources. Why not start somewhere and see where it goes? Why not go for it, just for the experience, for the process, and for creativity rather than letting the fear of failure keep me from doing anything at all.

I'm so thankful to the incredible team in Portland that helped me putt all together. Thank you Aaron Courter for bouncing ideas around with me and shooting along side me. Thank you Rosemary Stafford for the incredible bouquet. If you are looking for a beautiful bouquet with amazing texture and think outside the box creativity, Rosemary is your girl! Thank you Jamie O'neill for your exquisite make-up. Your work was the star of the show, and I'm so grateful for your talent. Thank you to Sunny and Stumpy for a killer paper flower hair piece. And of course, thank you Misha and Cade, my lovely past clients and friends, for being such wonderful models to work with.